Dearest You,
I thought you're the one. I thought you're not one of the jerks in the crowd. I thought you're never going to break my heart. Look what happened. I hope you could take a look what is in my heart. I wish you could read my thoughts and my heart right now. But you can’t. You never have.
Some says that there are some relationships that change you for the better. And some relationships that wound you so much that you are unable to live your life the way you should. Our relationship is the latter. The ending of our relationship was painful. More painful than anything I have ever experienced. If it wasn't for you, I would never learn to be stronger and better each and every day. I have learned that when it is not the right relationship, it just isn't the right relationship.
You've hurt me in a unique way. I congratulate you for that. I don't know if you can fully understand my situation right now. This can never be fixed if you don't allow yourself to speak. You never allowed me to express my sadness when you betrayed me. You never allowed me to see you and talk to you personally for you to explain why you did it.
I was hurt, or should I say I'm still hurting right now. That night was the worst ever, you did not only take my heart but also the pride I had for myself. You took it and never explained why you could do something so hurtful to the person you say you love deeply. You are not manly enough, that's it.
When you greeted me on my 21st birthday, I felt unloved. I didn't feel anything but resentment. I was hoping you were the first or last one who will greet me. I was wrong. You sent me a message the day after my special day and telling me you forgot it. I know you know how excited I was. Five months ago, we were planning what to do on my birthday. We planned it very well, but since we drifted apart, it never happened. I guess I always wanted you to love me and to continue to love even if we're no longer together. So I admit, that I am selfish. Nonetheless, if ever we could go back and stay together, I think we will just destroy each other. Today is the time we should realize that it has to end...now. Well here we are, five months of no talking after you apologized, and tried pathetically to rebuild a friendship.
I must admit, I'm slightly nervous writing this letter to you. I have so much to say but my heart can't take to continue writing anymore. I think I'm in danger. I'm in danger of not recovering from the pain you've caused me. But allow me to say thank you. Thank you for letting me go. I miss you sometimes, but it was the best decision you could have made. I won’t ever forget the kisses that you gave me. I still think of you. I still want to talk to you. I still pray for you. I still want to hold your hand and hug you for the very last time.
I loved you. I cared about you. I loved us. I cared about us. You're not the one for me. I'm finally letting you go. Good luck and God bless in your life and career as well.
Always,
The Girl You Left Behind And Will Be Happier Without You.
I thought you're the one. I thought you're not one of the jerks in the crowd. I thought you're never going to break my heart. Look what happened. I hope you could take a look what is in my heart. I wish you could read my thoughts and my heart right now. But you can’t. You never have.
Some says that there are some relationships that change you for the better. And some relationships that wound you so much that you are unable to live your life the way you should. Our relationship is the latter. The ending of our relationship was painful. More painful than anything I have ever experienced. If it wasn't for you, I would never learn to be stronger and better each and every day. I have learned that when it is not the right relationship, it just isn't the right relationship.
You've hurt me in a unique way. I congratulate you for that. I don't know if you can fully understand my situation right now. This can never be fixed if you don't allow yourself to speak. You never allowed me to express my sadness when you betrayed me. You never allowed me to see you and talk to you personally for you to explain why you did it.
I was hurt, or should I say I'm still hurting right now. That night was the worst ever, you did not only take my heart but also the pride I had for myself. You took it and never explained why you could do something so hurtful to the person you say you love deeply. You are not manly enough, that's it.
When you greeted me on my 21st birthday, I felt unloved. I didn't feel anything but resentment. I was hoping you were the first or last one who will greet me. I was wrong. You sent me a message the day after my special day and telling me you forgot it. I know you know how excited I was. Five months ago, we were planning what to do on my birthday. We planned it very well, but since we drifted apart, it never happened. I guess I always wanted you to love me and to continue to love even if we're no longer together. So I admit, that I am selfish. Nonetheless, if ever we could go back and stay together, I think we will just destroy each other. Today is the time we should realize that it has to end...now. Well here we are, five months of no talking after you apologized, and tried pathetically to rebuild a friendship.
I must admit, I'm slightly nervous writing this letter to you. I have so much to say but my heart can't take to continue writing anymore. I think I'm in danger. I'm in danger of not recovering from the pain you've caused me. But allow me to say thank you. Thank you for letting me go. I miss you sometimes, but it was the best decision you could have made. I won’t ever forget the kisses that you gave me. I still think of you. I still want to talk to you. I still pray for you. I still want to hold your hand and hug you for the very last time.
I loved you. I cared about you. I loved us. I cared about us. You're not the one for me. I'm finally letting you go. Good luck and God bless in your life and career as well.
Always,
The Girl You Left Behind And Will Be Happier Without You.
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